Surrender is the Ore that guides the boat of our life through the waves of Joy & Sorrow, Pain & Pleasure, without overturning. So, what am I surrendering and who am I surrendering to?
Knowing that my duty ends with performance and I have no other obligation than to perform my duty 100%, I relinquish the right to the results of my actions. The expectation of looking forward to results going in the direction that I want and not accepting anything else without a fight is the root cause for the unstable bouncing around within my head screaming at pain and yelling with joy. I am a Yo-Yo dancing with the pull and push of life.
If I want peace of mind, an equilibrium and a constancy to my life, then Surrender is the answer. Surrender means Freedom. Freedom from ‘i’, ‘my’, ‘mine’, ‘my own’, ‘you’, ‘your’, ‘yours’ etc., these ideas divide and rule thus affecting peace and equanimity.
In order to relinquish these ideas, I need to fill myself with Love, a Love that emanates from the depths of my heart in the knowledge that the same core that drives me is in the others as well and that fundamentally we all are equal. That Love then results in Faith, a Faith that no matter what life is throwing at me, I will survive.
When Love and Faith are combined, Devotion rises. Devotion not necessarily oriented towards any one particular person or thing or concept, but Devotion towards everything I see and do with a steady flow of love.
When I am steeped in Devotion arising from Love and Faith, I reside in and act from my heart, therefore everything I do will be an act of surrender as my mind calmly observes without being a participant. Things happen around me. I will still go through pleasure and pain etc., but they do not touch my equilibrium.
That is the theory. In practice…… well, there is a very big curtain between my ego and the real me. As the curtain covers the real me, doubts and confusion ravage me and the flow of love is not continuous and inclusive. I cannot surrender. This curtain is only as long as the distance between my head and heart, yet, I go so far away searching how to remove this curtain.
How do I remove this curtain? When I connect to my breath, when I breathe deeply and sink into that breath completely, it gently lifts the curtain to reveal my Heart Centre. As my head fades into the background even momentarily in the soft breeze of my breath, I become aware of my Heart Centre glowing softly in its radiance ready to guide me gently.
When I act from this awareness, my troubles seem trivial and a new strength arises with renewed hope, zeal and enthusiasm. I have connected with Love. With that connection, if I remind myself ‘this too shall pass’, I regain my equanimity and that is Surrender. I am not relinquishing my power to someone outside of me.
‘i’ am surrendering to “I”, the ‘I’ that is in me shining, waiting patiently to be connected to, so it can breathe its reassurance that I am eternal no matter what and ‘i’ just have to accept as ‘I’ show up, with Love, Faith and Devotion and without guilt and worry.
As Lao Tzu says:
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past;
If you are anxious, you are living in the future;
If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
Deep, conscious breathing brings us back into the present moment and as I live in the present moment with complete awareness
‘i’ am surrendering to ‘I’ and in that Surrender is the greatest Freedom because everything ‘i’ experience (good or bad) is a gift from ‘I’.
What do you think? Is it as simple? It can be and often it is……
Try and let me know.
Until next time, don’t forget to Breathe……….deeply
With Love and Respect